Day 17
I was careful this morning to make sure I was drinking enough water, but the dizziness never came back, thank goodness. I had an apple and string cheese, and after a couple meetings at work, it was lunch time already. I ate some almonds and some deli slices of low-sodium turkey from Sprouts, and the work day was over.
At home I went for a run, trying a new route of about 3 1/2 miles. I never felt super out of breath or exhausted, but my leg muscles just felt weak. About 2 3/4 miles in, my quads seized up and were so uncomfortable. Robyn wasn't done with the run, and kept dragging me on, but I definitely walked the last half mile. It was strange, being unable to finish a run, but not due to being completely out fo breath. I don't think I ate enough today to feed that run, so I made sure my dinner portion of green beans was huge. I think that was the biggest pile of green beans I had ever seen on anyone's plate ever. I also used our apartment complex's bbq for the first time. I made a garlic, bacon and parprika steak, and it was so good! I missed that smokey bbq flavor. It was a little awkward to have to leave my house with a plate of raw meat and sit outside the laundry room, waiting for it to cook, but that's fine. It was a nice quiet evening for watching the sky.
I am definitely wanting to cheat on the detox. I am so close! Just today, tomorrow, and Saturday. It is getting more difficult to say no to the chocolate chips. But it is easier, much easier, to walk past all the holiday candy at the grocery store and not even be tempted. Just out of curiosity, I picked up a box of candy that I used to eat often, and in one box there were 90 grams of sugar. 90! I definitely don't think I could apply the full out detox rules to my whole life after the 21 days are over (well, 20 for me), but I know that I am going to be a lot more educated in portions and choosing better desserts and snacks.
Day 18
This morning, I was running late, and even though I had planned to make fried eggs for breakfast, I really wanted to just make it easy and have some of Chad's Cheerios. Or a blueberry muffin. They had those at work yesterday, the giant Costco kind, and I did want to try one, until I read the label, and after flour, sugar is the next main ingredient. It's no wonder America is having such health problems and people having difficulty with obesity. Everything is unhealthy, and everything is loaded with sugar. I tried to think about how I want to keep making healthy choices, that way I am able to run, and not be wiped out after 3 miles, like I was yesterday. I made bad choices by not eating enough, and my run suffered. If I ate that muffin, even though I wasn't hungry, I just wanted the taste, I would have felt terrible! Today I wanted to make sure I ate well and ate enough so I could re-try yesterday's run.
I redid the run, and felt great! I took it a little easy, going a bit slower than normal, but I didn't feel any muscle weakness. When I got home, I was ready to cook some chicken and spinach, but Chad was really in the mood for Pick Up Sticks, and I knew it was against the diet, and I knew I only have a couple days left, but I also knew my husband was asking me to go out to dinner with him. I didn't want to disappoint him or me, and I really, really struggled. I eventually decided to get Chinese food with him, and I am paying the price now. My stomach feels bloated, my digestion is upset, I feel overly stuffed, and after eating I feel a desperate need for vegetables. I had some carrots, but it was so strange. It was like my body was revolting and was demanding better nutrients.
This worries me for the future. I don't want to continue the detox forever, just socially it is hard to keep up, but I don't like feeling this way. The food did not taste magical and wonderful, like I had been missing sugary food all this time. It tasted like proceeded fast Chinese food. And it was 60 grams of sugar. And so not worth it. I feel guilty, but I don't want to make other people feel guilty when eating with me. How am I ever going to rejoin the sugar eating world?
Day 19
This is my last day of the detox. Tomorrow is Easter, and I decided to spend Easter with my family without diet restriction. I woke up late and had a scrambled egg brunch, and snacked throughout the day. I had really terrible dreams, and didn't feel rested for the rest of the day. I did cheat a little, as I was made Easter-themed homemade honey marshmallows for my family, and "needed" to taste them to make sure they were okay. They were.
Day 20/21
Easter- my first day off the detox! I definitely agree with the reports that sugar is related to sleep quality. I woke up again, twice last night, with truly terrible dreams. They were so bad that when I woke up, I was actually crying, and couldn't shake that awful feeling for about an hour after getting out of bed. I already miss restful sleep!
My first post-detox treat was hot chocolate. Oh, how I missed hot cocoa! Then we went to church, and then to my mom's for Easter Brunch. I didn't feel up to eating all the sugary foods, but I did have a (21dsd-safe) omlette, a mini cinnamon bun, a mixed fruit salad, and some orange juice. That was a whole lot of sugar and carbs, and I felt it. My hands got shakey and I definitely felt a sugar rush and crash, and then I craved more sugar! I really went crazy, and then had a rice krispies treat, but then I knew I had to cool it. I was so full, I had no room for dinner, I got sleepy at 8:30 at night, and had nightmares again. I woke up still tired, still stuffed and bloated, and not all that excited about rejoining sugar-world.
Today is Monday, the 21, and I am at work. I think that I am going to continue to follow the 21dsd rules for weekdays, and use the freedom of the weekend to have a cheat day here or there. I have to grocery shop tonight, and I know I won't go completely back to before the detox. I am looking at this experience as mostly educational, that way I know how to make better nutritional choices in the future.